When I'm analyzing a client's information security architecture or recommending an enhancement or addition to the program there is never a question as to the components that must provide the base of support necessary for the program to be successful. But, when it comes to my alcoholism, there's always that tendency to want to second-guess the program with a "do I really need that?"
The simple answer is, if the AA program "suggests" it, do it.
That was brought home to be by the speaker I heard tonight, who described a harrowing alcoholic journey interrupted by brief periods of sobriety that always ended when she stopped working the program as given to her and put herself and not her Higher Power in the driver's seat. She knew:
"It won't happen this time..."Well it did happen, she forgot what it was like and that love disappeared when he went back out. She didn't have a base to stand on and she fell. Over and over and over. She lost. Over and over and over. She finally did reach her bottom. Nearly dead, but she reached it. And now, with a little more than a year, she's sharing the message of hope that she has found building a base on which to stand. She's learning the true meaning of the words: "Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path..."
"I know what it's like out there now..."
"I love him too much to let him go now..."
She shared that hope with me tonight and I'm grateful, because it reminds me that I have to take time every day to work on my program and build that base a little stronger.
Until next time...
